so today i turned 36. a lot of people have their lives fulfilled by 36. kids, husband/wife, the house and the bills. happy or not, most 36 year olds are "complete". well, i must say i am very incomplete and there's nothing wrong with that! (for me at least). most people might say..."im sure she's saying that because she's not there, not even close" uhhh..no. unlike a lot of people that i personally know (some tolerate me), i do not need all of those things to "feel complete". of course, every now and then, i get "lonely"...but let's face it, i am 36. end of discussion. :-)
i have found my "single" status to be an advantage. i won't list the usual cliche-ish things (i come and go as i please, i don't have to cook and clean for no one, etc), cause even if i was "attached" i am sure i'd still do those (to some extent). some days i find myself wanting to "date" someone; someone i can hang out with, enjoy their company and then send them home. other days i have no desire in getting myself seriously involved with no one. sometimes relationships are drama-filled. (did i say "sometimes"? gosh i think it's 95% of the time!) and i am not looking for drama, tears, anger, and all other emotions that come with it.
maybe i will find prince charming tomorrow. maybe he will come in 4 years (when i am 40!!! oh lord) but in the meantime, i am not in a rush to hook up with someone (and not the "jersey shore" hook up definition), just to say i am in a relationship, just so i won't be alone. i am not settling for the next suitor (unless his name is Eric Northman or Alcide Herveaux (from True Blood) lol; i am not being picky either- i guess i am not in the "chasing" mood (unless...*evil grin*)- being single might be the pits sometimes, but being in the wrong relationship is hell!
